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hi i'm Leah. 16. American.
Straight but not narrow
love is not real
forever alone.
in love with music, and only music
I play xbox every day..
I hurt people
pessimistic
stressed
hypocrtical, hopelessly in "like"
i hate my birthday
hate my hometown.
singing is my thing
concerts every day,
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    noodz

    FAQ

  • so beautiful. every single person should read this…

    SO YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF? BECAUSE NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU. YOUR FAMILY HATES YOU. RIGHT? NO. YOUR PARENTS WALKING IN YOUR ROOM IN THE MORNING TO ONLY FIND A DEAD BODY. THEY’LL TRY THEIR HARDEST TO NOT THINK NEGATIVE, AND TO JUST THINK THAT YOU’RE FOOLING AROUND. THEN THEY’LL START SHAKING YOU. WHY AREN’T YOU BREATHING? THEY’LL BE BROKEN. TEARS. MANY TEARS. MORE TEARS THAN YOU EVER SHED. WAS IT THEM? WERE THEY THE REASON YOU DID THIS? MORE TEARS. PAIN. EVERY DAY. EVERY NIGHT. EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF EVERY DAY. GUILT. MORE GUILT. WHAT ABOUT YOUR BESTFRIENDS? THEY’RE NOT GOING TO CARE. RIGHT? NO. WHAT’S THE FIRST THING THAT WILL GO THROUGH THEIR MIND WHEN YOUR PRINCIPAL COMES IN AND TELLS THE CLASS THAT YOU’RE NOT ALIVE. WHILE YOUR BESTFRIEND SITS THERE IN TEARS. THAT GIRL THAT YOU’D SMILE AT BUT NEVER TALK TO? SHE’S NOW CRYING. THE BOY WHO USED TO KICK YOU UNDER THE TABLE JUST TO ANNOY YOU? HE’LL BE SHOCKED. HE’LL BE DEVASTATED. HE’LL BLAME HIMSELF. WHAT ABOUT YOUR TEACHER? THOUGHTS CROSSING HER MIND. SHE’LL QUESTION IF YOU DID IT BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T MAKE SCHOOL COMFORTABLE ENOUGH FOR YOU. PAIN. DEVASTATION. ALL IN ONE. WHO ORGANIZES YOUR FUNERAL? WHO HAS TO GO THROUGH YOUR STUFF? CLOTHES? NOTES? THOSE FEW OLDER GIRLS WHO USED TO GIVE YOU DAGGERS AT SCHOOL? THEY’LL FEEL REGRET. THEY’LL BLAME THEMSELVES. SEE, IF YOU KILLED YOURSELF TODAY, YOU’LL NEVER KNOW WHAT MIGHT OF HAPPENED TOMORROW. YOU’LL NEVER KNOW BECAUSE YOU’RE DEAD. PLAIN DEAD. NOT BREATHING. NOT ALIVE. JUST DEAD. YOUR FAMILY HATES THEMSELVES FOR IT. YOUR BESTFRIEND THEN FALLS INTO DEPRESSION. TEARS. TEARS. MORE TEARS THAN A RIVER. ALL BECAUSE YOU KILLED YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT NOONE WOULD CARE. RIGHT? YOU ARE LOVED. BY MANY. SOMEONE RIGHT NOW IS THINKING OF YOU. AND RIGHT NOW, I’M THINKING ABOUT ANYONE WHO HAS THOUGHT OR IS CONSIDERING SUICIDE. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. NO MATTER IF YOU’RE BLACK, WHITE, HOMO-SEXUAL, TALL, SHORT, OVERWEIGHT OR ANOREXIC. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF? THINK ABOUT IT FIRST. THERE’S NO COMING BACK. AND I PROMISE, IF YOU DO IT, YOU ARE NOT ONLY HURTING YOURSELF, YOU ARE HURTING MANY. YOU ARE CREATING MORE TEARS THAN YOU LED YOURSELF TO. YOU ARE MAKING EVERYONE MISERABLE AND MAKING THEM ALL FEEL GUILT AND PAIN. NEVER WILL THEY FEEL WHOLE LIKE THEY USED TO WHEN THEY HAD YOU. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. AND YOU ARE NEVER EVER ALONE.

    Her Life Confession

    She spends every night picking up broken glass

    Cause there isn’t a single day that will ever pass,

    When she looks in the mirror at a beautiful face

    All she wants is to leave this awful place

    Where no one cares, she only sits alone

    Until she can find some peace to call her own

    It’s not that she’s lonely, it’s better that way

    She just wants the pain to go away

    the sadness and heartache refuses to let go

    she just sits there and smiles, hoping it won’t show

    Miserable nights, and never ending days

    She does all these awful things, yet the agony still stays

    When she does them, the pain will briefly stop

    but soon again, she finds herself bleeding all over her tank top

    sitting on the cold wood floor, shaking and crying

    trying to let go of the fact that she’s been constantly dying

    and lying about her feelings and emotions of hate

    she only hates herself, her face, her body, her weight.

    She keeps her distance from the people she grows close to

    cause they lie when they say they’ll help her pull through

    There are nights when she lays there wishing to die

    sometimes we are just broken, and we don’t know why

    she’s grown numb to the feeling now, the hurt is just there

    Before she says her last and final prayer

    Cause the tears burn

    and she’ll never learn

    That no matter how hard she tries..the happiness will never return

    16 days ….down the drain.

    Day #63

    i promised i wouldn’t let this happen again…but he’s forcing it.

    "There are no happy endings
    endings are the saddest part
    so just give me a happy middle
    and a very happy start."
    Shel Silverstein

    Day #41 

    no matter how hard you try… things will never be the same

    Day #36

    In a world where i feel like i have nothing… i have music.

    Day #35

    Can anything make me feel better…it seems to get worse day after day.

    day #34

    Just when i thought things couldn’t possibly get worse…they did.

    Day #33

    i dread every moment of getting ready for school because i know what’s to come…

    Day #33

    How could someone possibly go to school feeling like this.

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